(Now, before you start reading this post I want you to keep an open mind. But, on the flipside, if this isn’t your thing, I completely understand and you’re obviously under no obligation to read.)
I’ve always been a very spiritual person, I think.
I grew up going to church and I had my First Communion when I was about 8. The best thing about my fairly religious upbringing, however, was how open my parents were with it being my choice. My Mum and 99% of her side of the family are Catholic. My Dad and 99% of his side of the family are Athiest/non-religious. And, as I grew older, I grew into my own belief system as nothing was ever forced on me – I grew up somewhere in the middle, I think. I don’t believe in god and I don’t think we’ll ever be able to prove or disprove the existence of a higher power, but I’d really like to feel like there was something, you know?
Except for a bit of back-story, I think my religious beliefs (or lack thereof) are irrelevant to this post. I don’t, personally, link spirituality and religion. I very much see them as separate. But, that said, it would be detrimental to ignore the fairly religious upbringing I did have. (And, again, big thanks to my Mum and Dad to being such A+ parents – choice is always key if you ask me).
When I say I’ve always been interested in spirituality, I more mean along the lines of the universe, stars, planets, fate, karma, crystals, tarot, mediums, the afterlife, paranormal things etc. There are always areas I’m not particularly interested in (e.g. witchcraft isn’t really my cup of tea), but as a whole, it’s just something I’m fascinated by.
To be fair, on the subject of my upbringing, my parents have also been very spiritually open with me throughout my life. They’ve made regular visits to Tarot readers, mediums and are extremely interested in the more paranormal side of things. So, this interest very probably stemmed from them.
I think I may go into all this more in detail in future posts. I just wanted to give you guys a bit of context. So, for now I want to talk to you about Tarot.
I was talking to Kaye about Tarot on Twitter a few days ago. I’d never previously had my cards read but had been interested for a REALLY long time. She recommended Kerry, who actually does Tarot readings online, so I researched her a little and bought a reading straight away. Less than 24 hours later, I had the most beautiful personalised PDF document and a lovely personal email in my inbox with all the details from my reading in.
I didn’t expect such a quick turnover and I definitely didn’t expect to be so nervous. It was a good nervous, though. An excited nervous. I didn’t really know what to expect. I’d previously explained my life situation to Kerry via email, including areas I’d like a focus on during my reading.
So, what did my reading say?
Well, to be honest, I don’t want to go into *too* much detail. Call me selfish, but I did this for me and me alone. But, this blog at it’s heart has always been a place for reflection for me, so I’m obviously going to talk about it a little bit.
The next 5 months (which would bring me up to the end of January 2018) are going to be a really busy time for me, filled with a lot of positive change. I need to trust my instincts, keep pushing for what I want and evolve as I see fit.
Basically, I need to trust myself and the universe more – which is something I often struggle with. I’m a real worrier (hello, anxiety) and I struggle to trust my own opinions and ideas, so I’ve been aware of the fact I need to trust myself more for a while. It was really great to actually hear someone else say it. I need to stop being scared of the future, embrace it and see what takes me where. There is a running theme throughout the reading of me letting things happen, not resisting and trusting myself, which is a really big relief for me.
I have to be versatile, I have to expect bumps in the road and I need to ditch things that don’t serve a purpose to me.
I also need to slow down slightly otherwise I risk my health. I’ve talked a lot recently about how busy I’ve been and how I need to recharge more, so this one really struck me. I’m running myself into the ground mentally and physically at the moment so slowing down would definitely be a good thing.
There’s a lot of talk of new paths and opportunities which has a very specific interpretation for me. Apparently I need to be prepared to take a leap, even if I’m nervous about it on the outside. It also mentions in several places I need to not fret if I feel like I’ve stopped moving, but I need to revel in the down time it brings.
What did I take from the reading?
To be honest, a lot. I know a lot of you will think it’s all psychological, telling me what I want to hear etc. But the whole experience has given me so much clarity and I think that’s why I’m so in love with the whole idea of Tarot.
I don’t see it as someone predicting my future with some magic cards. I see it as a method of plucking the thoughts and feelings from the depths of your brain and giving you some clarity. Most of the things I took from the reading are things I already knew, but it’s nice to look at things with a fresh perspective and maybe even re-consider things you’d dismissed.
As an example, if you plucked a card from a Tarot deck, was told the meaning of the card and instantly thought about one particular thing – that’s not a magic card, it’s something you already know being linked to something else for a reason. The brain is a powerful thing, but sometimes it can get a little swamped. Sometimes all you need is a little help to put 2 + 2 together.
Since the reading I feel like I have more of a set journey ahead of me. It’s like the path I had envisioned was a little murky and I was a little nervous, but now it’s clear as day and I know what I want and how I want to do it. The whole reading has made me realise what is important to me and how to deal with certain aspects of my life.
It feels really good to have some clarity and I would honestly recommend Tarot readings to anyone. Kerry was especially great if you can’t make it to someone in-person, but I’d really love to have a proper face-to-face reading soon. So, if anyone can recommend a good reader based around Leeds, holla at me!