It’s only a couple of days since I wrote a post about how I’m feeling overwhelmed with all the things I want to do, whilst simultaneously being terrible at balancing it all. The response I’ve had from the post has been so amazing – from people saying they struggle with the same thing, to people giving me some really great advice on how best to manage my time.
Since writing it, I’ve been thinking about all the things I want to do even more. And I’ve decided to go at my own pace.
It may not sound like much of a revelation, but to me it really does feel like one.
For as long as I can remember I’ve been an incredibly impatient person. As soon as I get an idea in my head, I want to do it RIGHT NOW. And if I can’t, I just get frustrated. It’s not a great quality if I’m honest, but there we go.
I also have this thing where I need to be the best at things. It’s very annoying and the older I get the better I’m getting at not caring, but it’s still there.
I have a long list in my head of things I want to do and things I want to achieve in the next couple of years. Some are new projects, some are seeing out current projects. Some are big life events and some are smaller, more personal things. As much as, in an ideal world, I’d like to do them all now, I know that’s not possible. There simply aren’t enough hours in the day or enough money in the bank.
It may sound silly, but I’m waiting for the new year to start a lot of them. My main priority for the rest of this year is saving some money so we can move out after Christmas. That is my focus. My non-financial focus is my blog and re-starting my YouTube channel. (More on THAT bombshell here.) I feel like some people may see this as an excuse, but I do genuinely believe once we’re in our own place, everything will fall into place. I’ll be able to branch out and start some of these projects. I’ll be able to dedicate more time to things. I’ll be able to really get to where I want to be.
In a world where being constantly busy is glamorized and sought after, I’m saying no. I’m saying I need time to stop every so often. I need to not be busy 24/7. I don’t care if that makes me less of a #girlboss to be honest – I’d rather stay happy and take longer to do something than stress myself out trying to work to the impossible deadlines and pressure we put on ourselves.
People work at different paces, things happen at different times for different people, just because I’m not doing exactly what I want right now doesn’t mean I won’t ever. (Deja vu or what?)
So, I’m going at my own pace.
I’m forcing my impatient side to sit back and take a breather.
Everything will happen it’s own time. I can’t burn myself out in the meanwhile trying to do too much.
And until I have the time and energy to start some of the things on my list, I have over 6 months to sit and brainstorm. I think this means I can treat myself to a new notebook, yes?